Into The Dark

I'm having a bad day
And I guess it's ok for that to happen sometimes
But it doesn't feel that way

I wish that I were beautiful
I wish that I were wonderful
I wish that I were loved

But are any of these things a guarantee
That the darkness inside of me
Won't close in and destroy my soul?

Not that I--at least in this lifetime--will ever know.

L i l y

Eating Disorder

My stomach is not hungry
My soul is hungry

But I do not know how to feed a soul
So I feed my stomach

And now I am fat
And my soul is hungrier than ever.