Unforgettable Despair

The horror of your desperate final act stains my mind red like your blood
I can never think of you without the image of your violent despair creeping up on me
Any inward glimpse of you forever tainted
By having viewed the sanguine results of your remorseless self-hatred
A broken soul's inner anguish exploding to the surface
Burning into the minds of all who were forced to view the aftermath
Your unforgettable despair
Cie
January 12 2007

Surrender

I give myself over
To the cutting hate
Of the knowledge
That I am filth
That I am nothing
That I am unloved
Unwanted
Unmourned
I surrender to the knowledge
That my life is a waste.